Hello Wednesday, I cannot believe you are here already! This week seems to have sprouted wings and flown away from me a bit. So many things to do and so very little time. The needles are busy here in the Buckeye State on all sorts of goodies. As I am sitting here in my knitting/reading chair and looking at the profuse amount of yarn around me I am a bit terrified, how did I end up with so many things on the needles at once? Let’s see if I cannot break it down a bit:
- The Fault in Our Stars Scarf (my first every design!)
- Roman Pillar Stitch Baby Blanket (super-duper snuggly and soon will be off the needles)
- Magical Thinking Scarf (saw the yarn, thought of Joan Didion’s book and went with it)
- Stitch Pattern Week 9 ( better be off this morning – No peeking at the pattern yet though!)
- Another scarf (oh…when did I start this? Oh Right! Super soft scarf for a friend with radiation burns…that needs to get done yesterday…)
- Chevron Stitch afghan (this doesn’t need to come off till December 24th at the latest)
- Hot Water Bottle Cover (off the needles…NOW!)
Too many things going at once? Nope, don’t think so. When it comes to knitting I am like a swinger – married to knit but will knit anything….anytime and anywhere! 🙂
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As the weather warms and summer approaches that means more time for me and the munchkin. My brother works at Muirfield and the summer’s are so busy that I get to have her all to myself, where as in the winter I have to share her more than I would like. As she has gotten older and developed more of a personality and we have grown closer, she seems more and more adult every time I see her. In the back of my mind though, as we spend this time together I worry I am a bad example.
Due to a series of unfortunate events (putting it lightly) I am not where I thought I would be at 28. When I lost functionality in my hand I just quit writing, taking photos and expanding these things that used to be concrete dreams. I gave up a bit – okay, a lot – and it has been through knitting, my husband and the munchkin that I am slowly getting back to where I want to be. This doesn’t erase the fact that I am still not there, and since Gloria’s mother is not in the picture I want to be a strong female role model for the munchkin. Am I cut out for that?
Mental illness makes me goofy. My OCD panic monster has given me noticeable quirks that have always been accepted by the munchkin, but is seeing them bad for her? I try to get her to read as much and as often as possible (without being pushy), but do I know what is the best things for her to read? She spends time in our library at home, but have I filled the shelves with the best possible things for her to read?
We play Scrabble, we read, we talk about writing, we watch movies, we giggle….we do cool aunt stuff. I just want her to know how proud of her I am, and I want to be someone she can look up to.
So friends and neighbors…how do you set a good example for the people in your life you love? Any advice is good advice in my book.
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-Finding My Way Back-
I am trying to get back to my photography roots, trying to remember my dreams. Have a look!
Hello Wednesday, I cannot believe you are here already! This weeks seems to have sprouted wings and flown away from me a bit.
I AGREE Rachel 🙂
LOVE the Kitten 🙂
🙂 It’ll be next week before I know it!
Great photos! Well, I think the important thing is being there and be true to yourself and others… and love, love is always the answer 🙂 Kisses
Amazing WIP’s and beautiful photos!
It sounds like you’re setting a great example for your niece. No one can be perfect – all we can do is work at loving people in the best way we know and apologise when we get it wrong 🙂
Thank you so much!
“Panic monster” is the perfect phrase. I’ve had panic attacks since I was 12, and though I’ve improved over the last few years with medication, I still can’t get those years back. And I feel I would have been a different person had I not been plagued with this. I’m not exactly where I want to be at 26, but at least I’m somewhere, haha. But one thing I’ve learned, you’ll regret it if you give up on what you love and don’t fight for it. Those picture are gorgeous! Get back in the game and take some more stunning photos! And of course, keep knitting!
Thank you so much for the compliments, it is scary showing things after you have lost some confidence in it. I am glad to hear that things are on the upswing for you but I totally agree that those years are just…gone. I am trying the approach that if I hadn’t experienced what I did I would be a less compassionate person, trying to put a positive spin on it. But I will keep fighting, get busy living or get busy dying right?
I think that you are in the perfect place for your niece. Your life may not have turned out the way you expected, or wanted it to, but you can now show her that whatever happens you have choices that you can make about your own life. This is one of the most important lessons that I think children need to learn. Stop worrying about everything – show your niece, through your actions that mistakes can be made and it doesn’t have to be the end of the world. It is how you deal with any fallout that is important. Good luck.
LOVE the pictures! They are really beautiful. Keep it up, you’re very talented. 🙂
And thank you for sharing your stories. I totally understand where you’re coming from, I found myself single after a 10 year relationship, without a job and without a place to live at 28 so I completely understand not feeling like you’re where you should be…but I’ve realized that the beauty of life…is that you make your own rules. 🙂 You seem to be doing really well in that regards. And keep doing what you’re doing, it seems to be working with your niece. Sounds like you’re a great role model. 🙂
Those are some really gorgeous photos! But isn’t it normal to be swinging a half-dozen or so WIPs at a time?!? In any relationship, I think the greatest example you can set is to be real + be there ❤
This is great advice, and heaven knows I need all the advice I can get.
Beautiful photographs, such a lovely post too. You have shown your niece what a strong resilient person you are. I’m glad you have your knitting, I think it’s like my painting for me and keep on photographing, they’re lovely!
Thank you so much. There was a lot of anxiety about posting these pictures, what you’ve said means so much!